Bro, isn't it weird that the moment I quit taking SSRIs and started microdosing ketamine I became a more spiritual and creative person (I literally can not stop making music and writing substacks) and I feel more in tune with the physical world?
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two months actually!!! (captions on anything other than images are broken on substack)
Now I'm not saying They (Big Pharma, NOT the Jews) designed these drugs to sedate or numb me because they did technically work on dealing with my depression and anxiety but it was at the expense of losing my soul, idk man it's very weird.
Also I noticed another thing right as everyone grows and tries to find themselves on this journey if you are for example Cis, heterosexual, not poor and neuroatypical, you are essentially starting from 0, but if you are for example poor, mentally ill, not heterosexual, etc you are starting from below 0, you have to work on managing those issues and traumas while simultaneously trying to navigate the world and find yourself.
I was thinking about how a friend of mine was raised in a literal cult but still came out normal and yet I have two loving parents and still came out fucked up. I then realised it was the combination of poverty, race and mental illness which led to me becoming jokerfied. Ketamine and time is a hell of a drug.
The left tried to sort this with the creation of the progressive stack and intersectionality but to my gut, something feels off with the implementation of it like it was made by the CIA or something. I’m not sure I have my thoughts completely figured out on this matter—open to learning.
Take for example Tyler the creator, and the evolution of his sound. His edgy earlier work seemed to me as simply an expression of his repressed homosexuality and daddy issues (he literally called an album Bastard and would rap about the gayest shit possible) and now that he is ‘out’ the music he makes is so beautiful even in his edgier earlier works like Goblin and Bastard there were always these moments, gems of really captivating and lush sounds.
I think that is also why he has such a cult-like following because so many people out there are probably in a similar position and feel represented and valid by his music.